| | It's been weeks...I haven't written much and even gave up my yearly diary this year. I should have a lot to write, but...I don't know, I'd like to write to an audience, yet at the same time I like not to. Hah, in fact, I don't know if I still have an audience and how many people have that automatic email thing. Maybe I should get me a diary for next year and start writing in it again. Problem is, I bet that all I write is negative stuff. Complaints. Anger and pain. I actually thought about that. I need a black book for that. Write down everything and then burn it.
But to make some sort of update, I still and should post my Dubai travels from last year. My apartment pictures. I've much stuff around 3 or 4 times now. I think I have it at a set up that I really like. I was back in Malaysia in June and I got to see my niece. I miss her....
I lost my 2 best friends. I can't even explain how except that I guess they got tired of me. It was easier to forget about me and replace me with someone else than it was to deal with my crazy antics and tell me to stop my bullshit and get myself together.
Mike and I made our yearly travel again and we went to Germany, Budapest, Prague and Amsterdam. Honestly I think I tried to block most stuff out of my mind. 1/3 of the time I was miserable over the lost of my friends, 1/3 I was trying to ignore the hurt of being dumped by Mike for his friends and then conveniently rejoining me when they ditched him (all of this was preplanned, I was just trying not to remember and focus on it), and 1/3 of the time I actually enjoyed myself. I will post stories and pictures, but it'll probably be a lot shorter and less interesting.
Oh yea, I transferred departments and avoided being fired in July. I love my new job and the responsibilities that come with it. Along with the people. It's definitely much easier to handle. I also got my green card approved, hooray!
Mike and I also celebrated our 4 year anniversary in October. I don't know how I feel. I guess not excited...4 is a bad number for us. He broke up with his gf after 4 years and Roger and I broke up after 4 years. So I think I'd rather forget that we've been together 4 years. No good can come out of it. No wonder the Chinese don't like the number 4. If we can make it to 5 then it'll be something to celebrate.
I had a new year's resolution (yea yea, I know it's not the new year's yet, but if it's a resolution it can be made anytime and start anytime). It's to try/do something every month. Last month, me and two good friends took cake decorating classes. I was gonna go swing dance this month, but timing didn't work out. So instead....I'm taking a free massage class tomorrow.
I've also started reading again. Now that my commute is about 45 minutes long I can read on the train. So far I've been averaging 1 book a week. I'm on Twilight right now. I can see why people love Edward. I want an Edward too, and then I realize, I have an Edward. All that crazy emotion....
Speaking of emotion. I noticed that mine changes from the books that I read and the movies that I watch. Is that normal? Do I have some kind of mood/emotional sickness? When I was reading "The Da Vinci Code" I thought that there was a conspiracy on the way that my 2 best friends treated me. That is was all planned out....by one of them. I just watched "Basketball Diaries" and I am depressed and "in pain". Everything is so bleak.
Writing is good.....it clears my head. Somewhat.
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